I find it a little odd that my drive for a healthy clean lifestyle keeps getting subverted by my own doings. When everything is in alignment I can clearly see the path in front of me, the road towards the goals I dream about. But I think that for some reason I get scared of it. Almost force myself to fail. I ‘fuzz’ things up - I get drunk and lose myself in a safe womb of inebriation. It’s easy to be inspired by ideas in that state. What’s harder is taking that rough diamond and sculpting it into something beautiful, clear and most of all, finished. My drawer is full of fantastic ideas and amazing concepts but remarkably empty of finished creations.

That’s what this ritual is about though. Slowly putting the pegs is the ground and marking out the foundation. My foundation is an inner one. A spiritual and emotional foundation that I feel I’ve been missing since Bruce left. For this I need clarity. And I’m going to get it again. Just watch me.

“Turn the dial, find the spot where the static phases out and the music phases in. Now stay there.”